Didn't get the Career Center GA. Totally bummed and annoyed. Mostly annoyed at the fact that they couldn't even call me or personally email to tell me. I got an automated email from the ISU eRecruiting website saying "Sorry, you weren't selected." So not only it is a "no," I can't even ask them why they didn't choose me or see what tips they could give me for the next go-around. I can understand if someone does that for a real job... but a GA position? Lame. I might just be lashing out at someone else even though it's really my fault. Oh well. I've decided that interviews in general are just bogus. How can someone reasonably understand how you are as a person and a worker from only talking to you for 30-60 minutes and asking you generic questions? People are never themselves in interviews. I mean, the sheer nervousness that you have at an interview has the possibility of you blowing any chance that you're able to actually convey yo
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I really have to force myself to remember that we're fighting the same battle. What is that battle, you ask? The battle is going against whatever standard society has set up for us as women. Because no matter what we choose, it's not right. Here are the three fantastic choices and common reactions to each: 1) No marriage, no kids, career. Selfish! 2) Marriage, kids, no career. G enerations of women before you fought hard so that you wouldn't have to be barefoot and pregnant! So why aren't you working?! 3) Marriage, kids, career. Why aren't you staying home with your kids?! Unfortunately, we all have to pick one option and someone is always going to tell you that you've chosen the wrong one. We're all working hard and making the best of what choice we've made. I have to note one thing, though. I'm not sure how productive it is for us to denigrate the choices of other women and say that one job or choice is harder than the other. So someone telling
I got $550 worth of pounds for England today from our family friend, Pam, who was able to exchange the money without a fee at her bank. (The money is so beautiful, by the way. Way better than dollar bills. I think the 20£ bill is my favorite, though. Purple, of course.) It's almost like every day now something is happening to make this thing feel even more real. Lately these "things" have been detailed emails from John (supervisor at Cambridge DRC) about my project there and Carrie (who I will live with) about myself, her family, and Cambridge. It's so exciting--I can hardly stand it! I'm not sure if I really want to count down the time I have left at BroMenn or the time until I leave, but... I have 25 working days left at BroMenn and 47 days until I fly to London! The time will go super fast and I realize that. I'm not trying to rush it; I just want to savor my last month at BroMenn because I will miss it. Besides, there are quite a few things to get th
Places I need to go/see in England: - Burghley House - A beach - Canterbury (where I wanted to do practicum if Cambridge didn't work out) - Seven Sisters Country Park - Every garden I can find - Lambeth Palace Library's 400th Anniversary Exhibition Things I need to do in England: - Punt on the River Cam - Drink tea and eat a biscuit in a cafe - Find an old cemetery and look at the gravestones - Have a drink in a pub - Attend Evensong at King's College Chapel - Take a walk every day
Today was a good day of experiences. Experiences and nervousness and validation. A couple of weeks ago I contacted Kera who works in University College as an academic advisor to ask about shadowing her. She, of course, was super nice and let me do that today for 1.5 hours. I felt like it was really important for me to see an academic advisor in action, especially after all of my recent speculation that I may not be good at it and may be pursuing this degree for no reason. After being there today, I can confidently say that I know I would love it. Today's sessions are exactly how I pictured they would be. I realize that not all of academic advising is what I observed today, but I'm just so glad to know that it's not completely different than I had imagined and that I will be good at it if I get a job doing it someday. It felt good. And then after that I had my first interview for a GA position on campus. It was in the Career Center and I really amped myself up in terms
Suuuper tired tonight after a 12 hour day. My last delegate meeting, though. Too bad I pretty much have them down-pat at this point. I do hope that the person who replaces me is a quick learner because there are a lot of details to pay attention to. The night was good. I even got a shout-out from Roger Hunt, saying thanks for my service. I had to stand up and everyone looked at me and clapped for me, but it's nice to get the recognition. He told everyone that I'm going to England, so lots of people made conversation with me about that. It's a fun thing. I think that I am a fan of change. I'm not sure if I could ever be the person who works somewhere for 30 years. I guess I don't really have enough life experience yet to know if I'm that type of person, but I feel like I would get bored too easily. Who knows. This kind of change, though, I'm a fan of. Happily leaving one step in my life for another. Hopefully it's a step in the right direction. Eek!
Seven years after its release, I finally spent the $35 and got Brandon Boyd's book, White Fluffy Clouds . I remember wanting it badly when I was so into Incubus back in the day. (They are still my happy place.) It came in the mail today and took me about 20 minutes to look through. It makes me wish that I were creative in some conventional or unconventional way. My mind is so boring and immature compared to his. Granted, he's into crazy shit like outer space and other worlds. Not only is he super creative and into crazy shit, but he has the skills and talents to be able to create something out of it. I have none of these things. So all I can do is (poorly) write a blog entry about other people's creativity. At least I can appreciate it.
It is so amazing to me how much better my mood is when the temperatures are warmer and the sun is shining through just a bit. I've been in this weird funk for the past few days. I think it's been a combination of subconscious sadness from the anniversary of Mom's death (6 years), the realization that I have homework over spring break, my resistance to doing that homework, my annoyance with myself for having that resistance, slight PMSing, and other factors. But this morning... ahh--this morning! This morning I walk out the door and it's practically warm enough to not be wearing a coat! A jacket, maybe. And this automatically put me in a better mood. I was even able to walk in to the building from the parking lot and not be uncomfortable. Spectacular. And it might get even better as the week progresses. I heard something about a high of 63! Perhaps spring will really come this year after all. I'm pretty excited because last night I discovered that iTunes has a