Every day after class I have the same feeling--I'm not cut out for this. I feel like such an idiot. I just need some reassurance that I'll be okay and that I'll do a good job. I almost feel like at this point that I need to talk to Dr. Phyllis or Dr. Marcia about it. I mean, I know I won't give up because I don't do that. I just... I don't know. I think if I was friends with the kids in my classes that I would feel better. I don't know anyone even after all this time and I don't expect them to try to get to know me--I'm only in one class with them this semester so what do I expect? They all have three classes together and many live and/or work together too. I just feel so awkward and like I don't belong to the point where I don't even want to be there sometimes. And that sucks. I just keep telling myself that it'll get better. It has to!
I am so completely over the snow. I'm over hearing about it and seeing pictures of it, I'm over walking through it and driving on top of it. I'm over having it fall from the sky. But alas, it's snowing right now and we're to get a few more inches today. I knew that having those snow days would be a pain in the ass. Catching up at work on Thursday was overwhelming, but we got it under control eventually. I had to reschedule my mock interview from Wednesday to Friday. Oh, and my class that was supposed to meet on Wednesday will now meet on a Saturday or Sunday instead. Awesome. I guess I shouldn't complain. It was nice to have a few extra days off and I literally did nothing of value during those days. Tomorrow is three months until graduation. I have officially applied for two positions--both of them are advising jobs at UNLV (one in Fine Arts and one in Engineering). I basically have no hope of an interview, but I thought I'd at least try. I'm qualif...
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