So the situation with the parent has been, I guess, about 75% resolved. Cecilia did some investigating and it sounds like the whole thing was pretty much pointless (the student doesn't even need the class?!). I'm annoyed and frustrated because the mother took a completely different angle with Cecilia, which probably makes me look worse.
Cecilia reassured me that I did fine and that I shouldn't worry about it. I still feel awful; that mother said some very hurtful things that will probably stick with me for awhile. I still feel like crying about the whole thing. I hate feeling incompetent, but the thing that's worse is that I'm worried that Cecilia doesn't think I'm a good advisor. She doesn't know me well enough to know that I care, that I listen, and that I'm patient and understanding. All she knows is what she hears from other people and, unfortunately, this parent probably had a lot of bad things to say about me, which really just came from a place of frustration.
This whole thing has made me feel stupid and like I'm not cut out for this. I love this job and am grateful for it. I know I'll get better as time goes on, but last night and even today I've just felt like giving up and going back to what I know I'm good at.
These feelings are being exacerbated by the fact that I feel like everyone likes the other new person better than me. Gee--I can't wait until I feel confident again.
Cecilia reassured me that I did fine and that I shouldn't worry about it. I still feel awful; that mother said some very hurtful things that will probably stick with me for awhile. I still feel like crying about the whole thing. I hate feeling incompetent, but the thing that's worse is that I'm worried that Cecilia doesn't think I'm a good advisor. She doesn't know me well enough to know that I care, that I listen, and that I'm patient and understanding. All she knows is what she hears from other people and, unfortunately, this parent probably had a lot of bad things to say about me, which really just came from a place of frustration.
This whole thing has made me feel stupid and like I'm not cut out for this. I love this job and am grateful for it. I know I'll get better as time goes on, but last night and even today I've just felt like giving up and going back to what I know I'm good at.
These feelings are being exacerbated by the fact that I feel like everyone likes the other new person better than me. Gee--I can't wait until I feel confident again.
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