Old Soul, Young Heart

I just had a really hard time. We got our engagement pictures back yesterday and I did a bad thing. I found a way to save them without permission from the photographer. And then I posted them on facebook without the photographer's watermark. I know that's a big no-no since it's their business and it's copyrighted, but I was just so excited and had to share with everyone, but I didn't want to give everyone the password to our album on the photographer's website; I only wanted to post the ones that I really loved. So I just copied them in my sneaky way and posted them. But Philip made me feel bad about it and then Hannah made me feel bad about it, so I just deleted the album. With all the comments and likes from everyone. *sigh* I know it doesn't matter that much (deleting the album), but it still makes me sad. I should've just been patient, because Karen made a post with 20 pictures last night and I think pretty soon we'll get a cd with all of...

We had our engagement pictures today! For a long time I honestly wasn't looking forward to them because I just couldn't decide what to wear! I couldn't find the perfect thing, though I don't even know what that would have been unless I saw it. My expectations are so high for everything to be perfect and super cute and unique in every way because I see all of these awesome things on Pinterest all the time. For instance, I was going to make a little pennant for us to hold that said "09.22.12," but I totally forgot about it. It would've been cute for save-the-dates, but that's okay. Our outfits turned out to be fine, I guess. At the last minute on Sunday I found a cute shirt that's purple, so at least if we use one of that outfit for the save-the-date, the color will match somewhat to the wedding. I'm not super concerned about that, but it would be nice! I didn't know what to expect; that was the main reason why I was nervous, I think. The...

I keep telling Philip that I'm so happy that I'll always have the memories from the day we got engaged. The whole night was just so cute, so here are the things that, when I look back on that day, I think I'll always remember: Philip sitting on the porch, waiting for me when I pulled up. When his parents went outside for a minute, me and him dancing to the music that his mom had on. (Little did I know how nervous he was!) Me rambling on and on during the drive to the spot where he proposed. Me getting super nervous when I realized we were on the road to that spot. (I continued to ramble on, even worse probably, because I was so nervous!) Me getting even more super nervous when he said we were getting out of the car. Him holding my hand as he helped me through the barbed wire and up the hill. (Yes--we were trespassing and had to climb through a barbed wire fence!) Him looking me in the eyes and saying the sweetest things about me (and a cow mooing in the middle...

It actually happened and is actually happening! We're engaged and we're gonna get married! I'm so happy, excited, and lucky!!! It was probably the cutest possible proposal for us that he could've thought of. To make a long story short (and trust me, I want to retell the whole thing moment-by-moment a hundred times and am excited to do so!), he took me to a spot in the country outside of Peoria that we had randomly visited when we first started dating eight years ago. It's an old quarry and has a big cliff with a lake down below and is just really pretty countryside. We climbed up the hill, he said some very sweet things to me, offered me marriage and this gorgeous ring and I, of course, said yes. It was so surreal and special! We probably could've hugged all night up there, but we had a reservation at 309 in Peoria and so we had to go. We were also trespassing, so we didn't want to get caught! :P All night at dinner we just kept laughing and smiling and...