It was sooo difficult the first couple of days after I started trying to eat better. (Or really, eat less . We all know I'm not the healthiest eater ever). I had a little relapse the second day (I ate more pretzel m&ms than I should have), but since all of my goodies are gone, it's been fairly easy to not eat horribly. I think I literally was going through withdrawal because it took everything inside of me not to gorge. Feeling good. Feeling a little lighter these days! Work has been so busy this week and last week. It's always the crazies that come in last minute who are super picky about the times for their classes and have multiple issues, as well. It's kind of frustrating and it truly exhausts me, but I know things will settle down more next week and thereafter. Saturday I have a back facial and a... face... facial, so that's exciting. I haven't had something like that since I think the summer. Then on Sunday Philip and I are going to another bridal...
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I am having a major binging phase right now. I'm eating so horribly and that is not an exaggeration. I've got to do better. I just went into the break room and there were all of these leftover goodies from yesterday's Enrollment Services banquet and it took everything inside of me to not grab a cinnamon roll and two little brownies (especially because I am so hungry this morning). I even let out a little grunt because it was so difficult to leave empty-handed. I really need to get back into shape. I've only gained like five pounds from my normal, but it feels like a ton. I don't really like to blast my get-fit plans, but at the start of the year I'm going to go back to the gym at ISU for the spring and summer semesters. After that, I'm going to join Gold's Gym Express. I just want to feel better all around, but I, of course, want to look great for the wedding and honeymoon and I need to start now. I hate working out when I feel out of shape, but I alw...
I always get confused about the issue of body image. We are bombarded with images of models who are very skinny, but who, for the most part, look good in the clothes they are trying to sell to you (in my opinion). We're also told that the way these women keep their bodies in such a form is quite unhealthy. For a long time, I've thought that supermodels just have that type of body naturally; my best friend in high school could eat whatever she wanted without gaining a pound. Recently I saw an episode on something like 20/20 about models (of the runway variety) and it is ridiculous what those girls go through to keep their body in that kind of shape. They eat little to nothing and work out for hours every day. I have to assume that this rigid regiment is the norm for supermodels, because very few of us have the metabolism to keep us that thin naturally. The converse of the idea that "those women (models) are unhealthy" is that women of all shapes and sizes should l...
Trying to stay in shape is a constant struggle and I've realized that it will be for my entire life. It doesn't just happen--I have to make purposeful choices every day and it's really difficult. It really is a lifestyle and, although I hate making excuses, I really look forward to when I again have time in the day to actually work out. It's tough.
I'm wondering what the heck is up with all of my health problems lately. I mean, none of them are serious enough probably to even be considered "problems," but they bug me enough to need to do something about them and it's annoying. I feel like in the past two years I've gotten to be like 40 years old or something. I hope this isn't a taste of aging disgracefully. :(
I usually fall asleep at night mad at myself that I didn't take any time during the day to just stop, look around, and smell the roses. The past few days I've been telling myself that I need to have at least one moment a day where I'm amazed at the wonder of the world. It's so hard for me to do that unless I spend time outside, unless there's some idea or fact that I learn that I'm just awed by. So, as one could guess, most days go by without any moment of wonder/awe. Today I made the good decision, however, to work out outside. It was a nice temperature--not too hot, and even a little cool when I wasn't working up a sweat. Right off the bat on the trail I got a few good whiffs of something. It smells really good and I think it was a weed and it made me appreciative that even though weeds are, well... weeds... that they're still good for something every once in a while--like a dandelion. These weeds were white and had little tiny blossoms and there wer...
I am officially done with my summer class and I am oh-so-happy about it. I don't know what it was about this class, but I was so ready to be done. I hope it's not an indication of the entire program. I don't think so though. A big week at work. We have a new person coming in--Joseph--so our office will be full again. It'll be interesting to see how the dynamic changes with him. Not gonna lie though--it gets frustrating having to constantly orient new people to everything in the office and answer the same questions repeatedly. Just two more groups to get through... I haven't gained any weight since returning from the cruise, which I'm stunned about. I've ate horribly and haven't worked out much at all. I really need to do better and I keep telling myself I'm going to, but it's just so difficult. I need to change my attitude towards food and exercising to how it was before. It's so hard though. I never thought I'd have this much of a st...
I just went for my first outdoor exercise excursion since spring. What a delight. It was sensory overload. I saw the most beautiful red tulips I think I've ever seen. They were like, more than red. They were high-definition-tv-in-real-life red. I wish I would've had my camera on me, but a picture wouldn't have done them justice anyway. The sun was shining in my face so brightly that I could see my eyelashes. The wind was blowing so hard that my sweat-soaked skin felt cool. And I re-fell in love with the band Thrice, particularly their song called "Night Diving."