Today has been quite a spectacular day. It's nice to have a whole day free to do whatever, and have the day not go as fast as it typically does. Very nice, indeed. I'm excited because I finally put together my application for the graduate certificate program in academic advising at Kansas State University. It's all online and is five extra classes. Two of the classes count as electives--even though for me only one will. The easiest way to explain it is because I should've started this certificate program earlier. It's okay... I wanted to take vocational counseling anyway. Tomorrow I will print everything at work and send it off in the mail. I'm wondering how long it'll take to hear back if I got in or not. I don't think it's a big issue about getting in. I just get anxious to know so that I can plan the future. More reading to do... outside!
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Life for now is getting more into a settled mode, I think. It's refreshing because for the past couple of weeks things have been crazy. In a few more weeks it'll be back to normal in basically every way. The book at work was really overwhelming for a little while. We sent it off to the publisher to approve some sample pages, and then when we get the go-ahead we can send the entire thing. I will be scared, but it'll be nice when it's completely off my hands. We had two graduations in the past two weeks. The old residents are done and the new ones arrive in a week. So, this week at work will be cleaning and tiding up and getting everything prepared for the new group. Once the new group starts, things will settle down quite a bit. And school started. I have yet to kind of find a schedule to get everything done. By the time class is over on Wednesday night, it basically already feels like the weekend and then I only have 1-2 days to finish reading for the next class! It...
I usually fall asleep at night mad at myself that I didn't take any time during the day to just stop, look around, and smell the roses. The past few days I've been telling myself that I need to have at least one moment a day where I'm amazed at the wonder of the world. It's so hard for me to do that unless I spend time outside, unless there's some idea or fact that I learn that I'm just awed by. So, as one could guess, most days go by without any moment of wonder/awe. Today I made the good decision, however, to work out outside. It was a nice temperature--not too hot, and even a little cool when I wasn't working up a sweat. Right off the bat on the trail I got a few good whiffs of something. It smells really good and I think it was a weed and it made me appreciative that even though weeds are, well... weeds... that they're still good for something every once in a while--like a dandelion. These weeds were white and had little tiny blossoms and there wer...
First day of class with my cohort group... I was so incredibly nervous! I don't know why over the past few years I've become less confident in myself and more nervous when attention is drawn to me and when I have to meet new people. It kind of sucks and I need to think more about what the correlation might be. It's like I don't feel as smart or as experienced as everyone else so I'd rather not stand out. But anyway, it went well. Lots of familiar faces thanks to facebook. Many seem to know each other fairly well, which I was kind of expecting. Dr. Mohammed seemed to kind of remember me from my application materials into the program. He mentioned Bill's name and said that he remembered his letter of recommendation. I'm wondering if it was just a fluke though because for one, Bill doesn't sign his name Bill, and for two, I went back and read Bill's letter and, although it was good, I don't know why it would stand out to someone who probably reads...
True friendships are hard to come by--the ones where you feel comfortable with someone even after you haven't seen them for months, or when you just click with someone after only knowing them for a few weeks. I would say Evan is one of three relationships I have like that; the other two being with Jessica and Michele. I don't know if I'm allotted more friendships like that, though I hope so. Especially after working at BroMenn, I've realized that life is about the gray. Nothing is black and white and nothing fits perfectly into categories, no matter how messy or inconvenient that is. It's just the way life is and I'm starting to realize and appreciate and embrace that more and more.
The other night I got to thinking about what my last day at work will be like in May. I'm just so stinking anxious for it to be here. I mean, nine months will go fast... but not fast enough! I was imagining what I would say at our last lunch together because I'm sure it will be quite a reflective time and Mollie or Bill or someone will make us go around and say things about one another. (I'm so bad at things like that and this group of colleagues loves to do it.) So, in preparation for that I think I might try to write a short little poem or something about each of my colleagues so that I don't have to think of something on the fly. And I really hope that Bill doesn't leave without saying goodbye the way he did to Katie. I could tell that her feelings were severely hurt when he did that and mine would be too. I feel like, especially now, that Bill and I understand each other better, so I don't think he would do that. Who knows, though... I get overwhelmed thin...