Old Soul, Young Heart

I'm going to be totally candid. I'm in a weird spot right now in regards to all of this wedding planning. On the one hand, I don't want to think and talk about it all the time because who can even do that? I, of course, (sort of) have other things going on in my life... though not a lot right now. I could basically drive myself crazy thinking about it because there are so many options, things to consider, and websites to browse. I also don't want to be "that bride" who only has wedding on the brain at all times and all topics inevitably lead back to the wedding. (I'm not really sure if those types of brides exist, but I imagine they do and I don't want to be one of them.) On the other hand, though, I do want to think and talk about it all the time because it's an exciting, once-in-a-lifetime event. I both do and don't want to talk about it (bring it up or even discuss it at length when asked) because it's fun to talk about your plans, b...

Something feels not quite right and I have no idea what it is. I hate that feeling...

Finally. We finally have a date. I'm so relieved and happy that we can move on from this. When I opened the letter from the chaplain at Wesleyan and saw September 22, 2012 at 3:30 pm (even in bold like that), I looked at it for a moment and imagined how nervous I'm going to be and thought about how it's actually happening now. Yay! This week during my lunch break I've spent a lot of time calling and emailing different reception places in town. Holiday Inn and Suites near the airport, Doubletree, and The Chateau are all booked for that date. I do have a viewing of Parke Hotel and Conference Center scheduled on the 28th and I'm emailing back and forth with Eastland Suites to see if they have our date open. It's actually kind of nice that these places are booked, just because it makes for less options and, therefore, less decisions to make. I think we'd be happy to have it at Parke, but I still want to see it in person again and talk to the catering manager. ...

I love The Pioneer Woman . I wish I was The Pioneer Woman. I truly do have aspirations of being super domestic and creative someday, but I think deep down I am just a lazy, boring person. I blame it on not having the appropriate space and tools, but we'll see if I feel and behave differently once we move in together and get into the married life routine. On a seemingly unrelated note, I am over purchasing books to read. Although I think it would be fun to have a living room filled with books and bookshelves, it honestly feels like a waste of money and space to me. I only get around to reading a book for a second or third time unless I really love it; all of the rest of them just sit there gathering dust until I feel like they aren't cool anymore and then I give them to Goodwill. So... I'm done buying books unless I read it once and just really need to have it at my disposal at all times. Enter the I-Share catalog and Heartland Community College's library. I'v...

I just got this nail polish today in the mail from Amazon that I discovered on Pinterest and I lovelovelove it! It is the perfect purple color. It's a "smoky violet" and is exactly the hue that I want for our wedding. (It's called "Parlez-Vous" by OPI.) I know I won't be able to find that, though.  Originally I had thought we'd do blue... there are two colors (Marine and Peacock) that I like at David's Bridal and I think it would be very elegant. Blue has been done, but I haven't been to a wedding with a really rich, dark blue color and so I thought it might be something different that people haven't seen. It's appropriate for the month (September) and I think it would be pretty. I'm kind of changing my mind, though. Purple has been my favorite color for years. Though I think purple has seen its day lately at weddings, I still might do it if I can find a shade that's not the same as what I've seen. You know me....

I kind of feel like students should submit some kind of personal statement of accountability before they're granted financial aid. There are so many students that come in here and withdraw from or fail their classes and the government has paid for it all. I understand sometimes there are extenuating circumstances, but I just saw this student who I would like to call a "Bad Attitude Bobby" who has to get a loan for school because the government wouldn't give him a grant. I am happy about it because he will probably withdraw from his classes anyway or just fail them. This is so frustrating to me because right after that I saw a student who just wants to take a course to get certified as a CNA so that she can get a (low-paying) nursing assistant job. Financial aid doesn't cover our CNA course. It's so sad because now she can't do this course and, subsequently, get a job because the government is paying for Bad Attitude Bobby instead. Grr...

Okay, I am so much more excited about wedding planning now! Evelyn Chapel is a go! I just need to submit our application after I get Philip's signature this weekend and get the confirmation letter back probably sometime next week saying that we have September 22, 2012 as our date! I'm so happy and relieved that this has worked out.