Reflecting on the past two class periods... I've decided that I have no group and that everyone else does. I try not to let it bother me because I have to remember that it's not because I'm a person that people don't want to get to know. I realize it's because all of them work together at assistantships and also have another together on Monday. Not being a part of the group is just a biproduct of working full-time and only going to school part-time. I get it. It's just hard sometimes to feel like I don't belong and that I have nothing in common with people. The majority of them are quite a bit younger and have a lot more experience than I do in student affairs, which sucks because I feel like the underdog. I've learned a lot and sort of still feel like I'll be good at it--I just feel like I'll be less good at it than my peers. ...Sigh...
I'm trying to decipher why I'm feeling nervous right now, but I've been having trouble pinpointing it. I've been wondering if it's because the time is getting nearer, but I really don't think that's it. I'm more excited than anything. Prior to today, I think I was nervous because I'm not 100% sure what the work I'll be doing at Cambridge will be like. However, this morning I talked to John, my supervisor, on the phone and essentially we just chatted again about things I already knew, but it was good to actually hear them from a human, rather from an email. I feel good about it now. About going to England, I was also wondering if my nervousness was because of the flight--but up until I was wondering that, I had never before considered that I was nervous about it. Again, I get more excited than nervous about such things. I've also considered that it might be because I have this paper due tomorrow, but that can't possibly be it because it...
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